Mirror, mirror, on the wall…

I wasn’t going to post about today’s daily prompt. In fact, I opened up wordpress today with the sole intention of blogging about something different entirely. And then I read it, and that changed. Because actually, it’s kind of an interesting one. 

Look in the mirror. Does the person you see match the person you feel like on the inside? How much stock do you put in appearances?

It’s actually the second part of this question that I find most intriguing, but for fear of stepping out of line and doing something different, let’s stick to the order we were asked in. As it’s currently 2:10am, I’m going to avoid the mirror for this. It’s been a long day and I’m very tired, but I reckon I’ve looked in the mirror enough times in my life to be able to answer it without doing so again now. So here goes. Maybe we’ll just treat this photo as a mirror, so we all get an idea of who I’m talking about (and if you still don’t get it – it’s me).


I guess first I need to explain who the person I feel like on the inside actually is. Herein lies the first problem for, alas, I have no freakin’ idea. Yeah, I’m on of those people. One of the ones who feels the need to travel and figure out exactly who I am and what I want in a comfortably unique yet obnoxiously cliché way. Through my life, I’ve kind of relied on other people’s perceptions of me to find out who I am. This led to overwhelming self-doubt and complete lack of confidence in my early teens, though I got through this in the same way that every other sheepish, bashful teenager manages to and finally decided to stop letting other people’s opinions matter that much. Though through my late teens this led to a more developed sense of self and happier mentality, my lack of care for other people’s opinions also landed me a dreadful sense of style. I’ve often thought this as I scroll through my old facebook photos thinking something along the lines of, ‘what? I was really allowed to go out looking like that?‘. It was a step in the right direction, but I still wasn’t quite there. It was then that something wonderful happened. University.

With University came an entirely new lifestyle (and an entirely new wardrobe). I was surrounded by new people who had no pre-conceived perceptions of me. People who thought I was different to the people I’d gotten used to at home and people who thought, god forbid, that I was ‘attractive’. This was a hugely exciting prospect at the time as, prior to this, it was never something I’d considered myself to be. I learned a lot about myself over those first two years, but it’s really been this last year that’s allowed me to learn the most about who I am.

I climbed Mount Kilimanjaro in summer 2013. This was the first turning point as I realised that I was far, far stronger than I’d ever thought I was, both physically and mentally. I was forced into a situation where I was entirely outside of my comfort zone and it’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me. Returning from this trip and becoming an Adventure Leader for a company called Student Adventures, I’ve learned that I’m more organised than I thought I was. That I’m a better communicator, and that I’m harder working than I realised I could be. So that’s great. I’m strong, I’m organised, I’m a decent communicator and I work hard. But I don’t feel that’s who I am. Which sucks. Because I’d like to know me. There’s still so much I have to learn about myself.

So does that match who I see in the mirror? Well… no. Not at all. The person I see in the mirror has things sorted out. I’m not one to let things show on the outside, and I don’t give a lot away from my face unless I’m with someone I know really well. It’s hard for me to talk about certain things, so I don’t let the outside world realise that those things even exist. I’ve got that down to an art. Every morning I wake up and have a shower and style my hair and decide what I’m going to wear for the day. I’m in control of that. I know how to do it. Unfortunately, this doesn’t apply to who I am. I’m not in control of that and I don’t know how to find it. Bummer. I make a point of acting like everything’s totally cool all the time even if it’s not, unless I’m with good friends – friends who I don’t care if they see me angry or upset. It’s rare, though. I don’t know what it would be like to meet me as somebody else, but hopefully I would seem like someone who has their next move figured out, whatever the situation. And I’m really not that. This is why I believe that how you look actually is important. It completely defines how other people perceive you. Which brings me nicely onto the second question.

How much stock do I put in appearances? A lot. How you look is very important. I’m not talking about whether you’re attractive or ‘ugly’, fat or thin, tall or short, whatever. I’m talking about how to carry yourself. Okay – so nobody falls in love at first sight with your personality. That’s true. But having self-confidence and taking care of yourself can be so much more important. If people want to go around not caring what others think then I’m not going to stop them, but I can’t do it. Not anymore. It needs to be thought about – whether you’re trying to get a job or simply give someone else a good impression of you, you’ve got more chance of doing it right if you make an effort with your appearance. It’s as simple as that. Do naturally attractive people have it easier? Probably. But people who care about themselves do as well, no matter what they look like before the morning routine. It’s true that I judge people by how they look sometimes, but I’m human. And if you deny that you’ve ever done that, I don’t believe you. I think a person’s appearance can be a reflection of what they’re like, in one way or another. And though we all have days where we look like we’ve been dragged through a hedge backwards, a person’s appearance can be their gateway to somewhere else entirely. It is by no means the be-all and end-all, but it’s that little boost along the way.

So go for it. Be daring and care what people think. When you care about your appearance, you feel more comfortable in yourself. When you feel more comfortable in yourself, you feel more confident. And when you feel more confident, you feel happy. And really, at the end of the day, that’s all anybody really needs.


11 people you will definitely meet at University

People always talk about stereotypes. Whether they’re at high school, college, university, or even adulthood, they’re always there. But how accurate are they? Speaking as somebody who is at University at the moment, I’m speaking from experience when I write this. So here goes. 11 people you will definitely meet at University.

1) The Emotional Drunk
Well, this is University we’re talking about. Of course we’re going to start off with the drunks… and there will be no shortage of drunks of this type. They’re normal, but as soon as they’ve got vodka in one hand and a shot glass in the other, a switch flips. They’re all over you, either crying or trying to have convince you to have sex with them… and they won’t remember doing either in the morning. Handle with care, guys.

2) The Happy Drunk
Again, normal until their lips touch the liquid. Suddenly, they’re bouncing off the walls. The world is a brilliant place, which automatically makes you a brilliant person for living in it. How exciting. Nothing can bring these guys down, and why should it? Jump in with them and enjoy the ride.

3) The Smartass
You’re sitting in your first lecture, watching people walk in through the door. He looks nice. She’s hot. I think I’d get on with them. And that’s when you see The Smartass. She’ll stride in, head held high because she’s convinced she already knows everything about what she’ll be studying for the next three years. Even though there’s room in her bag, she chooses to carry her textbooks, shaking her head to get a strand of her tidy hair away from her eyes. She may seem harmless, but look closer and you’ll see the bulging biceps from eighteen years of holding her arm up in the air, waiting to answer every question.

4) The Annoying Guy
They say if you feed a stray cat, it’ll never go away. That’s what you’ve got now. He’s nerdy, he isn’t sure how to use a shower effectively, and he talks about things in seemingly another language – he’s The Annoying Guy. You were nice to him during freshers, because you were nice to everybody during freshers. You wanted to make a good impression. Unfortunately for you, he took this as the foundation for a long-lasting and deeply connected friendship. Good luck shaking him off.

5) The Good Girl Gone Bad
She went to an all-girls school. She studied hard for her A-Levels, and had strict moral values about alcohol, sex, and… well… everything else you thought was fun. But times are changing. She arrives at University and her eyes are opened to a world of drinking games, 4am takeaways and flat parties. Instead of slipping into it, she goes wild. She’s out every night, hungover every morning, and has the more-than-occasional pregnancy scare. She’s fun, but sometimes a bit heavy going. That said, you wish you could go back with her at Christmas just so you could see her parents’ reaction to what their little girl has turned into.

6) The Jock
Standard stereotype right here, but again it’s true. You’ll rarely see him out of a tracksuit, or drinking anything other than a protein shake. They can bench twice your body weight, and probably outrun a lion. Occasionally arrogant and often walking around their flat half naked, they’re like bees; they won’t hurt you if you don’t hurt them.

7) The Attractive Rich Kid
Potentially 90210’s new cast member, The Attractive Rich Kid is like a human marmite – you’ll either love them, or hate them. Often found around other attractive, wealthy students, they’re good at accidentally insulting people and showing off how much money they have. They mean well, but often don’t think about how arrogant they sound when they say certain things. Oh – and their job at Abercrombie is nothing about money, more another way to validate how attractive they are.

8) The Artiste
She walks around with a vacant look on her face, her long hair dip-dyed a bold purple. She’s on an art course, and her room is a messy pit of incense and empty Starbucks takeaways. You’ll recognise her from the denim shorts and baggy t-shirts, always accompanied by some statement of a blazer and mismatched earrings. She’s nice enough and easy to get along with… but nobody will deny she’s a little bit weird.

9) The Slut
Does this one really need an explanation?

10) The Shy One
They make an appearance at parties and group occasions, but are never the centre of attention. If you want to talk to them, it’s best that you approach them than wait for them to approach you – it’ll take a while. Often found in the security of their room, your conversations will often only extend to a quick, “how are you? I haven’t seen you in days!” when they venture into the kitchen to get a cup of tea.

11) The Popular One
There’s always one. The guy who everybody wants to date, or the girl who everybody loves. There’s no point waiting for alone time with these guys, they’re always surrounded by a dedicated group of (often equally as popular) friends. They’re nice to everybody, and they’re the people you wish you knew. They’re tagged in 25 new photos every day, can be seen at every party, and somehow seem to pull off the grades, too. Sociable, outgoing, and always up for a good time.

So there you have it – 11 people that you will definitely meet at University. Get ready.